You are my Joy

Sing Sing Sing!
My heart is so glad!
I jumped for joy with the strength that I had!
A smile, a laugh, one silly thought,
I have to confess, in His joy I am caught!
He puts a song in my head and a verse in my heart,
I feel his love on this day, from the start!
No, I'm not happy, that word can't discover,
The joy I've tapped into, the joy I uncovered!
I sigh with delight, for Jesus walks by my side,
Rejoicing is contagious, I can't keep it inside!

mess up

if troubled was the word
i would be the personification.
if success was really a goal
why all this frustration?
and in the moment innocence fails
it shoots me in the back,
its like my lack of experience
has chosen me to attack.
competition never appreciates
all that has been done,
it just slips away
and with one shot is undone.

Sleep

Toss and turn, toss and turn
I do not know to where I turn.
I toss these ideas around inside
But all I do is sigh.

I sigh.
I cry.
I lie.
I try.

I do not know to where I turn.
So I toss.
I toss. I toss.

I lost.

For Bobbie- I love you

Void and vacant
Numb and lifeless
My gaze I cannot move.
No thoughts or feelings
Pass through my brain
Will all this improve?
All the sudden
Uncertainty comes knocking,
No, pounding on my door
And I dont want to know
What fate has in store.
Get me out so I can show
Some sort of emotion
Past all of my other cares
Past all the commotion.
I'm not sure, so please don't ask
I might not even tell
The only thing I know for sure,
It's not time for farewell.

a grow moment

You think I take advantage of you,
I think you take advantage of me,
So what is your definition of free?
Cause I'm living in mine if you can see.
I give, you take,
You give, I thank.
Did you know that there are two ways to communicate?
You bash it out and I receive,
Please just take a second to believe
That I do try to make to make you glad,
But good is overlooked, you see the bad.
I try to talk but you just say,
"Your defenses are up, don't treat me this way."
You blame my parents for how I am,
But that fades away when it's the door you slam.
You call me stupid, but between the lines
It's from all that anger that has been confined.
So thank you much for letting me stay
And forever now we must part ways,
It seems like growing up is what you need,
From all your bondage please be freed.

light of mine

on and off
flicker flicker
goes my light switch
quicker quicker
light in darkness
can you tell
it's in the corner
where it dwells

it stands there burning
brighter brighter
darkness leaves
it's lighter lighter
gather closer,
gentle blaze
seeing clearly
through this haze

never placing
under under
or the world will
wonder wonder
placing firmly
on a stand
wind protected
by his hand

For Sade

Travel, travel, far away land
Leap of faith, please hold my hand.
Reaching to accomplish this dream,
Going farther than it seems.
All my goals, why are u so far?
If you don't come soon, my heart will scar.
Leaving all of those I know,
But on this journey I must go.